B.R.B

This post was written and published in May 2014 on my first blog – my first assignment. It is a testament of God’s favour and mercy in my life! I read it over… and of course I’d write it differently now… a decade later. I also speak english way better now too – ah! God is faithful. I am reposting it as is… no edits!

“It is going to be the best day of my li-i-i-ife!” …Maybe not. Why not?!

Have you ever woken up and felt that you will have an awesome day without having anything planned? I have, and I am sure that I am not the only one. You just feel it! Some will agree with the fact that most of the time it is an indescribable feeling. You get excited all of a sudden, and you cannot wait to get out of your bed in order to unfold every surprises reserved for you. Then again, there are good and bad surprises; however, we do expect the best, which sometimes allow itself to be put on hold by the unexpected. (Like, seriously?) Come, let yourself drown in one of those situations, even if you do not know how to “swim”, I got you.

We are in May. See the sun shining on the grass by your window? It means you can wear whatever you want! No rain shall mess this day up. (Snowstorm who?). It is also one of those mornings where you manage to wake up early, and take advantage of every second of your time in order to get ready to start your day off; you even have time to daydream! You feel like dancing, there is a smile on your face, you feel at peace, alive! Oh happy heart, you are surrounded by a bunch of positive vibes! Lovely. Simply lovely.

You even decide to go to work/ school or wherever you have to go earlier. Yes, you just want to do everything right: right on time, right away, as long as it feels right. You dare to think the world is in harmony with you. For once, it does not feel like a heartless place; you feel at home. Until…

Until you get upset over something as irrelevant as forgetting your headphones at home or over someone who has not answered to your text message. Until you feel inferior because someone on the street looked at you like you were a nauseous bag of trash. Until you feel devastated because your dearest friend cannot hang out with you because he/she has other plans. Until you make up some scenarios in your head on how others do not like you…. In other words, it took less than an hour to totally change your mood – CLICK! See how you switched from bliss to self-destruction? From being “PRESENT” to “GONE”? Best day of your life? Ah! No.

Your insecurities; the sadness that is now part of your daily life; the feeling of shame you start to feel okay with that also helps to push away your loved ones, to put yourself aside because you think you deserve to be miserable… it is all in the mind. That feeling of not being good enough, that anxiety caused by thinking you will never be good at anything or never be responsible, never be loved… it is all in the mind.

You might think that it is not easy to be focused on the positive when you are surrounded by negativity. You might think that it is not easy to know the best when you are surrounded by the worst, and can only settle down for an eventual “good”. But once you know how priceless you are, and you engrave your value at the center of your mind, you will start to see the brighter side of every situation, you will find the good in every good-bye you will encounter, you will find joy in being you, you will not feel the need to impress anyone, you will stop living by others feelings. How? Change what you focus on. Set your priorities, set the difference between what you want and what is essential to your life even in the little things.

It worked for me. I have switched from being okay with my comfort zone to becoming bold. I have switched from low self-esteem to “I am fearfully and wonderfully made. – My soul knows it very well” I have figured what I needed, and what was not beneficial to me, and started to change what was not good to me. I do experience love, find positivity in all aspect of my life now. What I did? I have started to focus on Love. What is love? God is love. I love LOVE! His love brings me peace, and fulfill me with joy day by day. His love makes me aware of his presence that is simply heaven to me. From the day I have decided to give him my all, I have experienced nothing but what I need: peace, love, confidence. Those are essential to my wellness. It is amazing how I have upgraded from level 1 to 20, just by being closer to Him, and getting to know Him. It has just started!

“Oh taste and see that the Lord is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him” Psalm 34: 8

He knew my heart, he knew what I needed, but I had to focus on Him. Everyday can be the best day of your li-i-i-ife, but you must be willing to take care of your mind.

In case you did not know, you are worth dying for! Not sure? Go ask Jesus 😉